lost after a breakup
Jul 12
Someone should pick me up and strangle the wits out of me, because I just got to London a few days ago, but I’m perpetually stuck to my Macbook, emptying out the tissue-box, blowing my running nose every now and then, let my mind wander back to the good times. Deja vu? This is a perfect picture of a woman who just broken up with her boyfriend, in a foreign country. And while there are just theaters, bookshops, markets and museums waiting to be explored, I only crave for company of familiar faces, my mother and perhaps a steaming mug of hot chocolate. I have anticipated the break-up and have brought it up a number of times, but he denied everything and made sure I had a good time in Italy then, slammed the door on my face on my face after that.Ouch. After all the family dinners and childhood friends meet and greet. Which is why honesty sucks. But we knew it was coming.
Perhaps the change is for the better but why the hell do I still feel so lost?




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Comment by Gionata on July 17, 2008 at 10:59 am
what?
are you serious?!?!
Comment by Yng Lyn on July 18, 2008 at 6:31 am
dear this cannot be real. Oh god, I am so sorry
the strange thing is, I went through the same thing.. just staring at my macbook and crying my eyes out. It was also the same false perception that I knew it was coming, yet he denies it until the time was right to slam the door at the lowest point of my life. I remember when I visited him, I was on the same flight with a malaysian friend whose italian boyfriend is bringing her back to Rome to marry her. I wish I had that.
stay strong gal, there are many guys who will love you out there. You’ve got a whole world ahead. xx
Comment by Wandering Ying on July 18, 2008 at 7:04 pm
hey lyn,
thanks for the support. surprisingly, we had another talk after that…this time it was a video chat and then i realized that it was as painful for him to make this decision as it was for me. and while we’re now separated, it’s still difficult for him to let go..and we’ll end up hours video chatting…gaaaah!
btw-are u going back to italy anytime soon?
Comment by Yng Lyn on July 19, 2008 at 3:24 pm
hi ying,
thats nice to hear, its good that you both are giving it another try and its also sweet that he feels the pain of letting go too.. take it easy the two of you
Just be there for one another
nopers, wont be going back anytime soon. I finished my funds and the whole thing wasn’t going anywhere so I’d stay away for a while. I am a deeply emotional person so I tend to stay away from places that hold bittersweet nostalgia.
take care my dear, keep me posted on your adventures!